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Some days I'm an old colored woman with a bright yellow Pine-Sol scent evergreen that I hang from the mirror of my Buick when I go to bail my grandson out so I won't smell the beer on his clothes.
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Some days I'm a young black man just out of jail climbing into a Buick where grandma's big eyes see the things that I've done in the light of a day that last night in the darkness and fear I thought might never come.
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Other days I'm a cowboy on rodeo Sunday putting the biggest fastest meanest thing I can find between my pale ingrown-haired legs and riding that sucker as long as I can for the points when I last those 8 seconds. |
Other days I'm a trailer wife wearing a sun dress from Salvation Army I bought with the money my ex-husband won the one time he stayed on some bone-breaking bronco long enough to be called the weekend's best.
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| Some days I'm a hippie in denim and dirt sandals saying God loves you why don't you love me to the tune of invisible guitars that strum in my head ever since I bit into that one last mushroom that had been in the freezer ... how long? |
Some days I'm a business man three piece suited and hungry listening over my shoulder to Krishnas and moonies who ask me to love them and live off my taxes and wonder why I don't turn around. |
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Other days I'm a cop with a hardon for anger at injustice and lunacy and all I want is to lock it up fix it up clean it up shut it up so it doesn't touch anyone anywhere anymore. Especially me. |
Other days I'm a rapist and can't get the hate to come out of my body and fill up the bimbos who think they can walk over anybody any time who doesn't meet their middle class standards of cleanliness beauty and love |
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Some days I'm a wino and find 50 bucks in front of a whorehouse where two sailors reeled out on their way back to something that matters after blowing their week's wad on someone who doesn't. |
Some days I'm a hooker and throw 50 bucks out the second story window to a bum after two sailors leave cause I was only an excuse for them to be together naked and rutting and sweating and cumming and I don't get paid to do that. |
| Other days I'm a preacher, my starched white collar the only thing between prophetic smokers' lungs and a brain diseased with hope -- the only thing that ever felt like a noose except for this power that tells me to live. |
Other days I'm a sinner calling blasphemous names at the spirited wind that blows past the people who walk past my window refusing to stop for even one minute and won't let me say Hey what'd I do? |